My phone calender just reminded me its time to go get more blood work and another CAT scan - My breath just got stuck in my throat, my heart stopped beating, I am petrified. I am more scared at this very moment then the entire duration of my cancer. Is this normal? I would guess that it is. I don't know if I can do it again. I don't know what I will do if Atlas isn't working. I am getting married in less than 6 months. I am going on an awesome vacation with my loved ones in less than 4 months. As tears fall down my face all I can selfishly think is please oh please let my check up be okay.
I'm 34 years old. I had cancer and it status HAS to stay GONE!
