Monday, May 14, 2012

Anxiety

I am so anxious today I can't even explain it.  I feel like I did as a kid when I knew we were going to Gunnison for the weekend, excited type butterfly's except this isn't excited, its scared. Horrible dark thoughts, fears of things I can't understand.  So far I have been able to keep distracted at work with work & at home with other stuff, but today its creeping into my work.

Yesterday all I thought about were my herbs and how pretty they all look and how I hope I don't let them die.  It was a very good day.  I guess this is how cancer goes, some good days and some bad ones.  I really can not wait till Friday when I hope to know what exactly forms Bertha and how we attack her.

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